First Week

Well, the 1st week has come and gone and I am no thinner. I will not give up though. I will start again in the morning. I was busy this holiday weekend planting my garden and planting seeds in my flower boxes and planting flowers in my pots and trying to kill grass on my sidewalks, laundry, dishes and trying to get winter clothes away and getting out summer clothes. So you would think I was too busy to eat much, but no. Last night we didn't eat until 8:00 and then I was in bed by 10:30, so this is not good. I really need to incorporate more exercise.

I signed my sister and I up for our marathon in the Outer Banks in November, so we really need to start training. Last year we both had a hard time and had said that we were never doing that again, but here we are planning on walking it again.

I was in the Community Weight Loss and it ends the 9th of June and I haven't taken any weight off since I weighed in. Actually I think I have put on instead. I will be weighing in sometime this week, so I should at least try a little so I can see at least a loss. Crazy games I play with myself.

Anyhow I should really get to bed now as I am finally getting tired. This weekend I have been drinking too much caffeine and it has messed up my sleeping.

Wish me luck as I am going to need it.

Day 2

Well, I really haven't started the right way yet. Here I sit watching the Finale of the Biggest Loser and feeling like a failure. Because every new season of the Biggest Loser I tell myself that I am going to lose weight with all of the contestants on The Biggest Loser, yet I never do. Like I said here I sit watching the Biggest Loser Finale as I am eating a couple Spanakopita and drinking a bottle of Smirnoff Ice. Probably not something I should be eating if I am trying to take off weight and change my eating habits.

Yesterday I started out okay and I was counting my calories, but I did not exercise at all and then last night I started snacking while finishing up my book so that I could go to book club. Book club is at Java Joey's so I got myself a turkey and cheese wrap with Mayo on it and chips with a bottle of water. Then I came home in time to watch Dancing With The Stars and I wanted to snack so I had ice cream with chocolate syrup on it and I snacked on some crackers. Not good.

So today I thought I'd do better, but not really. I had 2 pieces of toast with butter and peanut butter on them, I Reese Cup and then for lunch my son, Kody, fixed us a white pizza so I ate 2 pieces of that. Plus yesterday and today I have been snacking on little Bliss creme de menthe meltaways. For dinner tonight I didn't have, which I know is not good. But once I got home from running a few errands after work I got on the computer for a little bit and finished up a bag of Cheetos and then I went out to work in my garden trying to get it ready for my brother to come and use the rotor tiller on it and I also used the weed wacker. So I did get a little exercise, but not what I should have even thought I was sweating. I was texted my girlfriend, Gail, tonight and we are going walking tomorrow after work. I really need to get back to walking.

I will let you know how I did tomorrow, but for now I have to get back to switching back and forth from Biggest Loser Finale and Dancing With The Stars Finale. I need some motivation.

I Start Tomorrow

Hi Everyone,

I start tomorrow with exercise and eating right and I am hoping for a life style change for good. It is going to be hard I am sure as I do a lot of socializing with dinners out or having family and friends in and we always have food. This weekend my family threw me a 50th birthday party. It was a wonderful party and I enjoyed it immensely and I have been eating I think non-stop ever since. Everyone has finally gone home and Frank, my husband, has left for work so I am enjoying some alone time sitting here drinking a Smirnoff Ice and eating some pretzel sticks enjoying the peace and quiet.

So remember me in your thoughts and prayers as I will need them.

The start of my weight journaling.

I know there are a lot of following weight loss everywhere on the net, but I feel I need to write about this as I have been battling my weight practically all my life. I feel I do not have a distorted view of how a body should look, yet I have been unhappy with my body for most of my life. I married young (19) and started having children fast (20). I wasn't thin, but I liked my body back then. I was a smoker for 23 years which helped keep my weight down although I was always about 20 pounds overweight. Once I turned 40 I quit smoking but I started eating to replace my cigarettes. Now I am 50 and am easily 70 pounds overweight. I turned 50 in March and I had a goal of losing 50 by my 50th birthday, but it has come and gone with my weight yo-yoing. My family is throwing me a 50th birthday party this month so I thought since I didn't lose the weight in time for my birthday I thought I'd do it for my party. I have failed once again. So this is why I thought I might start blogging about it so that others can view my struggle and maybe I'll be humiliated into staying on task and finally get this under control. I have been yo-yoing during my entire 40's using many techniques. I think my first start was in a competition with my sister, her daughter and 2 friends. We all put $100 dollars in and did the competition for 6 weeks. My sister and I tied with both losing 19 pounds so we split the $500.00. We then continued to weigh in every week to try and keep losing weight. However I went the other way and put my weight on and then some. So then I thought maybe we could do marathons so that this would be my exercise to help get the weight off. Well we have done 2 half marathons walking and I am proud of my acomphishments, however, it hasn't helped my weight at all. I have done a couple competitions with people at work and even won one, but my weight is back up again. I have done many things with friends trying to get this weight off, but just keep taking off and putting back on. I have been to weight watchers and took a class my work offered entitled Eat Well For Life where I learned many good things, but I just haven't implemented any of them. I would love to make a life style change and eat right and exercise on a regular basis so I can be happy with my body and of course reap the benefits of being fit. For those of you who truly know me you know I plan to live into my 90's so I don't want to be in bad health. I know there is always an underlying problem that keeps the weight on and I think I know what it is, but I want to try and explore possibilities and get to the root of the problem. I have no desire to be too thin as I think that would make me look older than what I am. The weight has made me look older for so many years so I definately don't want to do that to myself. So I am hoping that I will know when to quit as I do have an addictive personality and I don't want to go too far.



So I am hoping this will help and I am also hoping others might post some words of encouragement or maybe some constructive criticism or any kind of pointers would be great. Welcome to my world of weight and my journey to a healthier and happy body for my 50th year of life.